Changes

Everything changes... Everything... Including me. Today (actually over the last couple of days) I changed this blog. I changed the look, and the title. I thought it was kinda lame, and self centered having my name in the title of the blog. Then again blogs are mostly self-centered as the author is usually writing about themselves, or their opinions. I used to be this skinny geeky kid in high school, and now I am this geeky, not so skinny adult. I used to hate talking in front of a group, now I do it all the time. I used to be shy and socially backward, now I can and do talk to just about anyone (still a little afraid to talk to my boss, but that's another story). I used to exercise and be active, now I eat fast food, and sit all day in front of a computer... Not that I am fat or anything, just extremely out of shape! I used to be driven to do the best I could at whatever I was doing... Best at my job, school, life, whatever... Now after years of trying and not getting where I want, I don't try as hard... I have been worn down. Yep... The biggest change of all... I am getting old. Somewhere in the last decade I became middle aged. Which of course means I still have many, many years in front of me, but I guess I realized somewhere along the way, that I am not a kid any longer... (sigh).

SOOOO.... What do I do about it? Do I just keep on living this depressing life? Well I could... But NO!!!! I am going to change again... I am going to be better than I was yesterday... I am going to eat better, exercise, take the medication that the doctor told me to take (high cholesterol). I am going to drive my self to be the best computer programmer at my company. I am going to have a clean house, car, and life... And I am going to start.... Tomorrow... To tired today... Besides it's Friday...