Quick Thoughts

I am here alone thinking, and here is what I thought.

People are almost always alone when they don't want to be, because they repel others away in their bad moods.

Thinking about a problem too much can make it worse.

Also, people can mess up your day more than any thing that can happen to you during the day, that is unless you get seriously injured.

My final thought was that everyone should always have a person to talk to, and a back up just in case, because they are the ones you can call on when you are down or feel used. No one else will be there for you, no one else will notice, or if they notice, they will not care.

Quick Thoughts

When I need someone most, no one is there, and here I am all alone, broken and scared. Why do I feel like nobody cares?

Quick Thoughts

Not alone, not sure why. I looked down at life, and started to cry
Surrounded, but not. The unthinkable, thought.
This world is free for the taking, so take it.

Stricken

I want to hear yes
but you only say no.
I hope that my mess
isn’t starting to show.
I want to forget,
but I will always know,
know that they don’t regret
giving that final blow.

Little did you know,
I won’t give up hope.
No matter how hard the blow
I will find a way to cope.
Still hearing displeasure
it breaking the rope,
rope for this measure,
the high measured slope.

Now I have fallen,
lying here in the hate.
I have become sullen.
I may have lost my fate.
I healed from your blow,
but I have now lost the gate.
All that I know
was used for your bait.

Leave me to die
for now I don’t care.
I can only cry
from the pain I can’t bare.
I never thought
that I could hurt from a stare.
Unhurt when I fought,
but dead when you’re there.

Nothing

As I walk in the sand
I see and feel every grain,
but no one believes me.
They say I'm insane.
So I walk alone on the beach
to where no one has lain
to a place where I think,
"Is there nothing to gain?"
...Absolutely Nothing...
I hear every cross word
and see every small glare,
but there is no one who understands.
No one else has been there.
So I sit here alone,
and I may start to stare
stare while I think,
“Can’t any person care?”
...Absolutely No one...
I can tell if it’s love,
I can see who is fake
but I stay here alone.
I don’t wish to forsake.
So I sit on the side
and watch everyone take
I watch as I think,
“Can I heal from heart break?”
...Absolutely No way...
I can’t see me God,
yet I believe in fate.
Some people think I’m lying,
they only see the hate.
So I walk alone on the beach
for chose not to wait
I don’t wait so I can think,
“Is this the way to the Gate?”
...Yet I have it all...

sorry

I know my poems are late, but living in two houses is not easy.

I should have them posted by the end of this weekend.

Once again sorry for the inconvenience.

New poems

I have 2 new poems that I will be posting very soon.

In fact, I will post them tomorrow.

Sorry for the wait.

Redeemer

Even the greatest
will eventually fall.
Why do most people
fall with nothing at all?
Falling to darkness,
drowning in sin.
Far from the light,
is the devil’s grin.

Much is wanted,
but little is gained.
Suicide is high
and now they are chained.
Not seeing the truth;
not seeing the light.
Afraid of the One
that can end plight.

Redeemer of sins,
both big and small.
Not many know Him,
and that’s why they fall.
many cannot see,
more cannot hear.
The thought of each death
makes Him shed a tear.

If Only

If only…
If only the world
would accept me,
I’d fly like an eagle,
for I would be free.
If only you could see,
see everything as me,
you would understand
why I have no glee.
If only…
If only my world
was not so torn,
I’d show you new life
and make you reborn.
If only the horn
did not make life torn,
I would be lively
and never would I mourn.
If only…
If only our world
was not a disgrace,
we’d soar with birds
right into space.
If only this place
had a nice face,
I’d show you the world
and all of its grace.

Someone

All alone in this place;
bored and confused.
Nothing to live for.
You left me bruised.
I loved you so much,
but you left me.
It hurts to think of you,
and my pain brings you glee.

No one will take me,
so I sit here alone.
My pain now brings anger,
and my rage has grown.
The world is so noisy,
yet quite to me.
I feel invisible.
Can nobody see?

Frustration has set in,
and it just builds my rage.
Now holding in anger
has shut me in a cage.
All I need is a someone,
just that someone around.
Someone to talk to
when I have been downed.

Falling

Stumbling through life
down a lonely path.
Not wanting Hell,
but afraid of God’s wrath.
Passed by the world;
unwanted and unseen.
Forgotten is seclusion;
without anything serene.

Nothing to hold on;
unstoppable fall.
Running through darkness
with nothing at all.
Walking alone
with only a shadow.
Hated by all,
an all time low.

No savior from pain.
No stopping death.
Flash of light,
on the last breath.
Thought to be heartless,
but just misunderstood.
Unknown till now;
hate feels so good.

No right of passage,
all exits are blocked.
Anger is building
from being mocked.
Becoming numb;
unable to feel.
Never fighting again,
for love that seems real.

Dared to move,
now unable to stop.
Lifted oneself
up near the top.
Unreachable gladness;
unthinkable pain.
Like seeing the sunlight
from inescapable rain.

Togetherness lost,
for it built a wall.
Stuck on the inside;
not right at all.
People are killing,
more are dying.
Forced to see it all;
unable to stop crying.

Near the Edge

Driven to the edge;
I can’t hold on for long.
Far from the world,
and everything is wrong.
I lost it all
when I lost you.
Now I am trapped here,
with the spoken untrue.

You took my whole world,
and left me for dead.
Alone in the darkness;
many tears I have shed.
The door is locked,
you left no way out.
No one can hear me,
even if I shout.

Dead but alive,
is my condition.
The questions inside
confirmed my suspicion.
Waiting for more,
but knowing there is none.
Under this veil,
I can see no sun.

Forgotten or not?
I don’t really care.
There’s no way to find out;
no way out there.
All the exits are blocked.
I cannot leave.
The only thing left
is to sit here and grieve.

Wait! There’s a light;
The darkness was broken.
My emptiness filled
when that word was spoken.
You came back for me,
and opened the door.
My strength has returned.
I will hurt no more.

What a World

Violence makes glee?
Love makes tears?
Awake in the night.
Afraid without fears.
Dumber but smarter?
Obese but thin?
Looking at destruction
with a huge grin.

Society has flipped;
love now makes hate.
Fear was abolished.
Was this the world’s fate?
No one that cares;
nothing to live for.
All that is left
is anger and war.

People that see this
are said to be insane.
No one wants the truth;
they would rather live in vain.
Life has been wasted.
Death is ever present.
People see nothing,
unless it is violent.

What a world
this has become.
Why did this happen?
Are all people dumb?
Why would anyone
want to live here?
We have destroyed it all
without shedding a tear.

More Poems

These are not so new, but they are not yet on the site, so here they are. I guess Dad needed to update the site more often. Wow! There are a lot he doesn't have posted yet!

In the Dark

I stay in the dark
to avoid any light.
I cannot see people
as part of my plight.
I run from the world
and all that is good
to stay in the dark
and do nothing I should.

Away from reality,
in only despair.
I am all alone.
I just want someone to care.
the darkness is empty,
yet here I stay,
avoiding all light
for another long day.

Still I have nothing,
as this day passes to night,
no one will care
if I never see light.
The days can be tough,
but the nights bring no rest.
As I sit here alone
my mind is put through the test.

I think of my life
and what I could change.
Where did I go wrong?
How did I become so strange?
I destroyed all my hope
and crushed very dream.
With that single thought
I lost my bright gleam.
There is no returning
from this fatal dark.
It has made me vulnerable,
as a tree with no bark.
My life is now over,
I have no one that cares,
yet I will stay in the dark
to avoid all their stares.

There is so much more

I have many more poems, I am just choosing not to put them all on at once. If you have not seen them on the site already, just leave a comment and I will post them. Also, if there is any thing you want to share with me I am open to suggestions.

Different on the Outside

Sitting on the outside,
looking in at their life.
Many thoughts can change
when viewing another’s strife.
To see past the love,
yet see through the hate;
to see differently than all
is not a very good fate.

No one can understand
the things that are seen
when sitting alone
pondering the scene.
Thoughts cannot be based
on hate or love,
for there are no connections
when viewing from above.

Depression is different,
and harder to show.
Everyone else cries,
about what they don’t know.
Sitting here alone,
there is much time to think.
Now unable to cry
when there is no link.